sleepingintherain

Hey...wow, first one.

This has just been created because, well, my LiveJournal is too public, really. All my friends have it, and I can't write anything I really feel in it, at all.

So here we go...

Shit, I love Jon so much. I really do. [He better not somehow find this. Or our friendship is crushed.]
Right now, he's giving me love advice. Yep. Thats right. Except he doesn't know that the guy I'm telling him I'm in love with is HIM. Argh...cant he see? Why cant he fucking see.

I love him more than anyone ever, ever, ever. And he just doesnt see me. Doesnt see how we could ever be anything. The dreams I have of him are so sublime...so much better than my reality. Should it really be that way?

I can't remember what my life was like before I had these feelings...seriously.

And I don't know how anything is ever going to work again. Because, he doesn't love me, and he never will.

He loves that girl...whatever she's called, I dont even want to know.

All I know, is that he is all that matters to me. I don't know what I'd do without him, without my dreams of him, my thoughts of him...my longing for him. Because he is all I need, all I will ever need.

I love him.

Olivia xx